Friday, April 17, 2009

Awesome song and even awesome-er composition :)

Stand By Me

http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=2539741

Posted by praba at 6:44 PM

Friday, January 09, 2009

" 'For us, this life is not ... you see we are told that this life is not a place to enjoy and a place to be very happy. This life is a place for a test with us, and we always are willing to finish this test. This life is like a cage or a prison for us. We love it like we want to live in a toilet. And we just want to get out of it. We are like a bird who wants to be out of the prison and meet his God.'

'We really love death as much as you hate death. We wait for death as much as you want to get away from it, because for us dying in the way of Allah is a victory.'

'So how can you fight with us?' "

Khalid Khawaja in The Matyr's Oath by Stewart Bell

I will never be able to understand or sympathise with radical Islam and why these Muslims do what they do. Blame it on brainwashing and religion all you want but at the end of the day, shouldn't humanity triumph all? Or so I thought. But all these years of blind belief has resulted in wounds that stubbornly refuse to heal and instead serve as fodder for people to inflict so much pain in the world.

*sigh* What a screwed-up world we live in.

Posted by praba at 9:16 PM

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

I MISS HARRY :(

Am planning to have a 7-book marathon recap after As. Woo hoo! Can't wait :D

And yes, I know I've been neglecting the HBP movie, partly due to the fact that I KNOW it's gonna turn out like crap. But still, I WANT THIS CALENDAR! I REALLY REALLY DO. Am still keeping the GoF one Bean gave me for Christmas/my birthday, like centuries ago.

A few details for me to rant on:

-NARCISSA'S HAIR IS FRIGGIN BLONDE AND BLACK, LIKE PUNK ROCK BLONDE AND BLACK WHAT THE HECK. I actually spotted a Kiwi shotputter with the same hairstyle as her during the Olympics.

-Young Tom Riddle's hair is BROWN! *hyperventilates* Is jet-black SO HAAAAAAAAAAAARD a hair colour to fiiiiiiiiiiiiiind?

-Emma Watson ... *sigh*, I think this says it all.

-Dan's ugly and his eyes are STILL friggin BLUE.

Ok, yes, most of them are repeats; haven't had time to fully analyse everything. Maybe I'll have a bit more during the Sept hols.

Ok! Back to revising :(

Posted by praba at 4:12 AM

Monday, August 25, 2008

I've been saying my name out loud. I had scrawled it in my purple marker on the top of a set of Econs notes when I realised how fascinating it looked. Praba. I've never actually said my name and meant anything before. Like, I only ever use it to refer to myself. "Hi, my name is Praba". But today I said it properly, feeling the tip of my tongue vibrate against my palate as I reached the 'r'. And I wondered what it said about me. The 'b' kinda throws me off, startles me. Like, Prrra(and here it's all soothing and ahhhhhhhh)Ba(WHOA, whawassat?). I kinda like it. It sorta makes an impact. Like, I'm nice and warm and friendly BUT I'm also confident, aggressive, passionate. Odd though, after analysing my name it just seemed even more foreign to me.

Ah well, what's in a name.

Anyways, prelims have been ... predictable. :D Been thinking about my future, like where I'll be in 20 years and all that. Got me kinda scared. I guess I'll have to learn to take things one step at a time. Ugh, I dunno why but sometimes I hate being stuck in this island. It can be so ... stifling and uninspiring and drab and dreary and BLAH. And it's even worst watching some equally blah people trying to make their really rather boring lives more interesting. Quite amusing. But also VERY depressing.

Raaaahhhhhh ... one step at a time now prabsies (funnily enough, it feels more comfortable than 'praba' hmmm)

Posted by praba at 3:55 AM

Friday, August 08, 2008

I'm 18!!!!!!!!!!!

Wish I'm as excited as I sound, but I do miss being a nice, odd, prime number. Now I'm divisible by 2, 3, 6, 9, 18 ... THE HORROR!!!

Highlights of the day:
-BEAN CALLED FROM AUSSIE!
-Watched and was rather bored by the Beijing Olympics Open Ceremony; HOWEVER, checked out quite a few atheletes, NZ, Uruguay, Columbia and Germany have the best looking ones, HANDS DOWN.
-Had durian cake!!! Am still, er, releasing gas. Hahaha!
-Watched the third Mummy with my sister! First time I've watched a movie alone with her! I know, we're so deprived.
-Ate soursop ice cream with Hazel, Yingliang and Hash after school and ... didn't like it.
-Had to carry a pineapple home cos of Hash's incredible idea at a gift - though it could've been worst, she was intent on giving me the pumpkin, but I somehow managed to avoid that.

OK, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! AND ONLY 26 MORE MINUTES LEFT TILL THE END OF 080808, AM GLAD TO SAY I LIVED TO SEE THIS DAY! HAHA! WOO HOO! AM A LITTLE HIGH NOW. OK, SEE YA!

Posted by praba at 8:36 AM

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Oh dear lord I am in love ...

Onerepublic - All Fall Down

Step out the door and it feels like rainThat's the sound (that's the sound) on your window paneTake to the streets but you can't ignoreThat's the sound (that's the sound) you're waiting for
You feel that your will starts crashing downWhenever you're will starts crashing downWhenver your will starts crashing downThat's when you find me.
Yeah God love your soul and your aching bonesTake a breath, take a step, maybe down belowEveryone's the sameMy fingers to my toesWe just can't get a rideBut we're on the road
If ever your will starts crashing downWhenever your will starts crashing downWhenever your will starts crashing downThat's when you find me.
(Yeah) Lost til you're foundSwim til you drown
Know that we all fall downLove til you hateJump til you breakKnow that we all fall down
If ever your will starts crashing downWhenever your will starts crashing downIf ever your will starts crashing downThat's when you'll find (find) me
Lost til you're foundSwim til you drownKnow that we all fall downLove til you hateJump til you breakKnow that we all fall down
All fall down, we all fall down, all fall downWe all fall down, all fall down, all fall down
Lost til you're foundSwim til you drownKnow that we all fall downLove til you hateJump til you breakKnow that we all fall down

Oh my, my hair stands every time I listen to the cello, and its solos are FANTABULOUS! So, for all of you mainstream nincompoops who only know Onerepublic from Timbaland's utter destruction of Apologise (which has the cello as well!), please listen to some REAL music. Ugh, I almost cried when I heard the Timbaland version, didn't know anyone could have the heart to mangle such a gorgeous song.

SMUN starts tomorrow!!! Am very very nervous :S

Posted by praba at 6:53 PM

Thursday, May 29, 2008

My eyes have been tearing practically the whole day, ugh, crazy sun. I have so much to talk about I dunno where to start. These few days I've been pretty busy preparing for SMUN and practising the piano. Oh my, researching is FUN! Our topic's about Nuclear Proliferation, especially concerning Iran and I honestly have never felt more in the loop :D Opens up the whole world of international relationships and stupid, immature behaviour on the part of some governments, and, as a result, oppression of innocent people. Ugh, I honestly don't appreciate this Utopia I live in enough. I've been following Cyclone Nargis and the relief efforts in Myanmar and I simply DO NOT UNDERSTAND what kind of a shitty government refuses foreign aid when its people are dying without it. At least 25 million people need help and the bloody junta's being such a pain, I just don't understand. Politics is one thing, humanity is totally different, I just wish the junta could see that. Arrrrgh. I really really really really hope the junta stops being such an ass soon, they're improving, but they damn well can do so even faster, I'm sure. Bloody hell, they aren't even clearing up the corpses littering the padi fields. How nice if we could just all go into Myanmar and shoot the bloody junta down and help everyone. Stupid idiots. Violence begets violence! Okok, I should just leave these things to the UN.

I watched a documentary a few days back on the Smallest People in the World and I actually had to excuse myself to the toilet to bawl my eyes out. Taylor Marcello, 14 years old, barely 3 feet tall, a primordial dwarf. I dunno why I cried ... and I don't like to think it's because I felt sorry for her, that would be wrong cos that would mean I thought I was better than her, which I definitely don't. I think I cried because, for one moment, I put myself in her shoes and felt her pain, her pain at being in a world too big for her and her fear of all her crazy operations for her spine. Oh GOD, you should've heard her in her unnaturally high voice saying "Please don't hurt me, please don't hurt me" to the doctor, it's enough to bring anyone to tears. And, I just have this unbearable urge to tell her how beautiful she is to me, how strong and how magnificent she is to me. And I know JM could say it best, with "Bigger than my Body". I actually felt guilty at looking at myself in the mirror and cringing. I mean, Taylor honestly seems to be more comfortable in her skin than I am ... and I don't even have to deal with people staring at me all the time and whispering about how freakish I look. Apparently, some people don't even think she can understand them, one of them's even asked her mum if she's gonna die right in front of her. I mean, what the HELL is wrong with those people? It's like they treat her like she's not even human. Actually, I'm one to talk, my first reaction to seeing her on TV was to laugh ... :( Then I felt so horrible about it I cried. Ugh. Life can be so bloody gross sometimes. And the fact that she has such gorgeous sisters doesn't help much either, I guess.

Been in a weird sort of mood these few days, like today, when I was coming back home after running some errands, I was just wondering if life was a dream, and we wake up only when we died. And, suddenly, the whole world seemed brighter, the weird dude pulling a strip of bark off a tree, the leaves swaying in the breeze and even the cars zooming rudely down the road. And then I took in a deep breath ... and was suddenly just so glad I was alive.

Alrighty ... I should probably go practise ... Auf Stillem Waldespfad, Praembulum, Take the "A" Train, here I come!